Xana Morris - 19

I don’t know when it started
I think that one day I just woke up
In love with you

God damn
She’s got herself a girlfriend now
Well I guess she finally came out
Wish I coulda waited around
Maybe it coulda been me
Its all good
I'm always wanting more than I should
Bet you’d really love me if you could
'Cause if the wishes on my candles came true
It woulda been you

We were 19
The world was hard to please
And my daddy didn’t understand
That I just couldn’t love a man
The way I love you
It’s all that I do

But it would've been nice
If you would walk me home
Leave your coat and your keys in the corridor
Would you kiss me ha little more?
It would be fun
If you and me could've won
Walked off together into the Sun
Where you would call me the one
It woulda been sweet
If you had married me
But its all good baby
We were only 19

Just promise me one thing
Don’t go getting married
'Cause I'm going to cross oceans for you one day

God damn
I'm stuck on this once again
And I don’t know if we can be friends
One look at you and I'm a mess
Well I dug out your letters
They still make me weak
And I know it’s been years
But it killed me to leave
And I know it killed you too
Mid summer afternoon
On redwood avenue
If I could hold you once again
I wouldn’t let you loose
I wouldn’t make you choose
I wouldn’t make you choose
I wish I was ready for you now

But It would've be nice
If you would walk me home
Leave your coat and your keys in the corridor
Would you kiss me ha little more?
It would be fun
If you and me could've won
Walked off together into the Sun
Where you would call me the one
It woulda been sweet
If you had married me
But its all good baby
We were only 19

We try not to think about it
We try not to think about it
We try not to think about it
I still think about it
Do you think about it? How

We grew up, we moved out
We fucked up, fucked around
Got a job
Made some money
Blew it all, Its kinda funny
You don’t talk
To your dad
I don't talk
When I'm mad
We get scared
Don’t admit it
I don’t care
You don’t feel it
Breaking hearts
Just for fun
'Cause we could
Its so dumb
Fall in love
Too young
Fall apart In my arms
And I know
That it hurts
'Cause I feeling so far
Well my darling promise
Ain’t this what you wanted?
What you wanted?

But It would've be nice
If you would walk me home
Leave your coat and your keys in the corridor
Would you kiss me ha little more? Oh
And It would be fun
If you and me could've won
Walked off together into the Sun
Where you would call me the one
And it would be sweet
If you would marry me
But it’s all good baby
Yeah It’s all good
It’s all good baby
Yeah it's all

I would’ve loved
Would've loved you forever
It’s never enough
But I wanted it to be
Every night
You were sleeping in my sweater
Its never enough
But you wanted it to be
I would’ve loved
Would’ve loved you forever
It’s never enough
But I wanted it to be
Every night
You were sleeping in my sweater
It’s never enough
But you wanted it to be
Mmm, mmm

I'm dragging on the ending of this letter because I'm afraid
Afraid that once I stop writing
That's it for our story
I hope that's not the case
A love like ours
Never really goes away